I Am Capable Through God
For the first time in a while, I meditated. It was a beautiful night, and I had the evening to myself, which has been rare throughout these busy summer months. For some reason (not known to me at the time), I felt pushed to sit in stillness outside in the backyard, in the setting sunlight.
I took a seat and closed my eyes. Immediately, my thoughts started wandering into other, more “productive” things I should do tonight, a recap of my day, looking ahead to tomorrow. I tried not to be distracted by the sounds of the evening around me.
After about five minutes or so, I started to settle in. I unclenched my jaw and fists. I released the tension in my neck and forehead. (Maybe you’re doing this now as you read.) A quiet stillness started to grow. The sounds I had previously thought of as distractions became beautiful proof of my presence.
I noticed a cricket and another insect chirping their tunes. A dog barking a few doors down. A car door closing. The faint hum of a jet overhead.
I listened to each sound individually and gave them some of my attention. These sounds, which would normally be tuned out or labeled as background noise, if they even got labeled at all, suddenly became vivid. Giving them attention allowed me to be totally in the moment, appreciative of my ability to hear.
From there, my attention turned inward with my focus on the mind’s eye. This stirred up something spiritual in me. I felt gratitude. I also felt peace. A mantra came to me around this point. One word at a time at first, then slowly, a more cohesive phrase and then a declaration:
“I am capable through God.”
This rolled and weaved through my mind for several minutes. I turned it around, inspected it from different angles, and emphasized each word independently.
To me, this was permission and empowerment. Permission to keep going in my current pursuits. Permission to take risks, bet on myself, and lead my family with courage because I have God’s support behind me. I can lean on Him and trust Him to reveal my path as I walk.
It is also empowering because it gives me courage to know that I am not alone. I am seen and loved. And that is all I need.
I am capable.
Through God.
-Zach
I was praying, begging really, God to confirm or reveal my path. Was I in the right path? Should I move forward? Was I going wrong?
I heard an authoritative, simple response from the Lord:
“Trust Me.”
That was it. All my questions, and that was the whole message.
After further contemplation I realized this was confirmation I was going right, keep going, and keep my trust in Him